MOOING INTO THE ABYSS:

"a dairy"

baby's first post (1/365)

Saturday, December 9, 2023

Hey.
So, where do I begin?
Procrastination, that's where. JFC. (Jesus Fried Chicken). I have an essay that needs writing, and yet I'm right (write? haha, get it?) here.
Well then.
Hasta la vista babygirls, see ya on the other side.


OK... so maybe "consistency" isn't my forte.

Saturday, June 29, 2024

But WHO NEEDS IT, right? (write.)
ya kno
some people have a lil thing called CONSISTENCY. well THAT AIN'T ME CHIEF. THAT AIN'T ME BUSTA!!!!

imagine

having

a

sleep schedule

or

sleep

at

all

i dont have an endocrine system, i have an endocrine "set of loose guidelines".
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm uhhhhh

uhhhhhhhh i need a job. i tell that one lady at that one store i'd work for less than minimum wage
uhhhhh schedule driving instruction
uhhh senior portraits
uhhhhh research colleghes
study SAT (bring predicted 1460 up to 1550, bluebook??? khan academy)


i also want to write about a whole nother topic but my room is too fuckin hot 2 write rn juhgh fgh fgh fgh fgh fgh fgh fgh fgh adgadfg rsth hf hfgh

Why is it

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

I have about 12 disparate topics I want to write about
*Opens Google Docs*
*logs in*

POOF! all ideas have exited the lump of meat that I own called "my brain".


uhh hol up i'll write an introduction or somethin'

About This Site

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

Where am I? Why have I found myself on a poorly designed website hosted on Neocities Dot Com?

This is the "website" of some edgy teen.

The edgy teen's name? Angelica [REDACTED].

Names are irrelevant anyway

So... what makes this person so interesting they should have a blog on the interwebs?? What does this person even DO?????

The answer is...

uhhh.....

nothin' much :^(

buttttt TTTTTTT

...

I music (from time to time). I've been playing piano (on-and-off) for 11 years. If anyone needs some hastily composed background music for a short film, hit me up. I've been playing sax (poorly) for 5 years, and "just started" guitar (and by "just started" I mean I've been attempting to practice for about 10 months now but I'm not going anywhere).



I have a Flat.io account. Er, had. T'was a relic of a bygone era. I actually made a score for a play when I was 10 (written by my 10 year old self and an 11 year old friend) and it was pretty good, if you ignore the fact that I ripped off "Heartache" from Undertale smack dab in the middle of it.



I write. Mostly short stories with a vague setting and poorly thought out character names, or pretentious poetry that attempts to commentate on the state of modern soC IE TEA. Also, essays. Essays for no good reason on no particular topic. That's always fun.



Uhhh..... I try comedy. Not well, but I'm hoping to get into stand-up/open mics when I can actually DRIVE without having a HEART ATTACK!



I sometimes do weird lil video/photography projects that I usually regret making within a week of their creation.



ummmmm





...



I won a spelling bee when I was 8?

yeah

like weird lil songs and weird lil comics and weird lil videos and i am also ok at math

i run cross-country and Track but I am not good at either of those things, and that's irrelevant besides



oh my god will i ever accomplish anything with my life



uh hhhhhh hhhhhhh thats about it fo' now



cash ew on the other side

christ has RISEN!!

Saturday, July 13, 2024

christ has riSEN... Using the power of Fleischmanns® Yeast, you can achieve anything, even rising Jesus in those hard-to-reach, cave-tomby places. Now with rapid rising action!

panik attack

Sunday, January 5, 2024

you should go see


Did this instead of my Swarthmore and Harvey Mudd application on their due dates (my two dream schools; which I got INTERVIEWED for and received positive feedback from the interviewers) cuz I didn't understand teacher recommenders were a thing so there was no point in tryna submit the application anyway. Instead spent brief period of time in elevated emotional state making useless drawings.
kicking myself.
maybe UCs will go well

maybe

panik attack v2: you're stupid

Wednesday, January 8, 2024

swattie app got extended

and yet

i am not completing it

due to

*anxiety*




"muh anxiety" EVERYONE HAS ANXIETY BITCHHHHHHH

ok listen



i don't sleep bitch

bitchhhh!!!!







senior superlatives, amirite?

for some reason the ASB decided to make 5 out of 13 superlatives offered have a negative connotation.

"biggest heartbreaker" let's slutshame girls again. she's a bop!!!

"most likely to get carded at 30" god forbid men be short

"Most Irresponsible" seriously? this is the worst out of all of them WTF.

"Worst Driver" this is kinda funny but like. what happened to "most likely to succeed"

"Most Controversial". The guy who everyone's voting is a total sweetheart once you get to know him. Also several people voted me apparently. Not to imply that I'm a sweetheart or anything, but...

I suppose i'd rather be "Most Controversial" than nothing at all... at least it indicates you speak your mind? even if not necessarily in a totally-PC manner? ---> which is, paradoxically, Hashtag Girlboss



here's a quote from The Haunting of Hill House.

i've never watched it, but i saw it in a Reddit thread of "Good movie quotes?"



Olivia Crain: We're all safe now. This is our forever house. It always was. Nothing bad will ever touch them ever again.

Hugh Crain: Nothing good will, either.



and that about-sums up my thoughts on this matter

everyone has a stupid boyfriend now

Friday, January 10, 2024
ok listen a girl can dream

screw this stupid gender wars stuff

I'mma go to college soon. This autistic bitch needs to find a husband.

I wish personal ads were still a thing.

Nobody reads personal ads anymore in the year of our Lord A.D. 2025. (Oh God, that date sounds like the future!)

I need to lower my standards because I'm ugly asf and the men I like do not exist.

can't think of a title

Saturday, January 18, 2024

There's an epidemic of White people (often White women, but seems to be gradually spreading to men as well) giving themselves every single label they can come up with because they can't stand the idea of being privileged.*



*Myself included. Asdffdjknxcmvnxcmnerjksauoiauioiua

Who Want Me

Saturday, Februrary 8th, 2024

entp sluei 4w3 sx/so nasa fbi irs 69420 rat

Being fr, this format sucks balls. Online diaries tempt me into revealing too much personal information because there's just enough of an illusion of privacy....
Apparently this site has gotten around ~1500 views. I dunno from where. (If you're seeing this, hi!)
I doubt there are returning viewers since there's no interactive aspect to the site. I've only found two or three sites I return to semi-regularly and they're far better-constructed than this one.

No One Want Me ("Who Want Me" sequel)

Saturday, Februrary 8th, 2024

This just in.

I've decided to become an enneagram 7 because they're cooler and enneagram is fake anyway.

Maybe I'll be a 3. They're successful and driven.

Or a 5! Those guys are smart.

(you sexist pig what about women

*Slaps knee* Oh ho ho, but women don't exist on the internet.

i do not know anything i was going to try to say something useful but then i got caught up in this worthless monologue about enneagram

OSTRITCH TIME BABYGIRL!!!!! STICK YO HEAD IN THE SAND LIKE AN OSTRICH ? OSTRITCH? I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL 1!!!!



man i was actually going to write about a really interesting sociological/political phenomenon but ended up giving into the temptation to write drivel OH WELL OH WELL OH WELL
rip kanye fans

everything is breaking

Thursday, Februrary 13th, 2025

I know I have more agency than I recognize. Heck, I could literally go outside and start eating dirt right now!
(yes that's a reference to something i either read on twitter or tumblr, not sure)

Can't you just be a normal person?
Why do you
(WHEN I SAY "YOU" I MEAN "ME") (I am talking to myself)
always feel the need to eviscerate every idea?
and Scotch-tape it back together and turn that worksheet back in as homework. wouldn't it be more convenient not to rip it up in the first place?

This doesn't need to be on the internet

this doesn't need to be written, and yet, you wrote it



Will this make someone feel better?

Will this harm me?

people film themselves crying, with snot running down, to Taylor Swizzle's The Tortured Poets Department

i have more agency than i think

both are true



or is this fearmongering?

Okay, chill out.

Thursday, Februrary 13th, 2025

Calc II - Proctoring at [REDACTED] college.
Work on ETHN.
Girl Scout Gold Award.
Physics C... independent test proctoring or with some school? Do that ASAP.
"If necessary, add homeschooled students or students whose schools don’t offer their AP Exams(s) to your exam order by March 14" Do this ASAP, 3/14 is deadline for the SCHOOL. May need to go all the way to the Bay Area - [REDACTED] school said nope, no way, buzz off.
Get some sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I get the mental equivalent of Family Guy Subway Surfers Slime Fun Palooza Extravaganza Hour. It's very unpleasant.

September 11495, 1993

Wednesday, Februrary 19th, 2025

March 1780, 2020. Quarantine killed the internet.
"It was years before I came to the conclusion that you can't stop the brutal beauty of the food chain by removing yourself from it
There is no life without death
There's no way to live perfect" ~George Watsky [Leopards & Horseshoes]